Oh, it has been an interesting week in the Anderson household. Check out my new background, it was called "Home." I liked it and needed a change. My hubby helped with the color combos. I titled this Be Still, because that has been the message for me for this last week and until now. Last week our family was trying to get to Phoenix on President's weekend. Wish we would have known it was one of the busiest times to pass ride. Pass riding means you are on standby to see if there are any seats left after those who have already booked their tickets who get a seat regardless. I am going to try and make this short. My blogging tends to be lengthy, I am working on these details. To make a long story short we did not get on the plane, God's blessing in disguise even though it made my little Bailey girl cry because she did not understand why we could not go see her Grandma Pat. We missed a friends birthday too, Happy Birthday Mikey, so sorry we had to miss.
I woke up Thursday morning to the worse back pain I have ever experienced. My parents have chronic back pain and I only got a smiggon, if that is a word, of what they may deal with most of the time. I was literally walking crooked and every little move I made I hurt, I cried, I was in pain. Went to the dr's and she suspected a possible herniated disc. With my hubby playing Mr. Mom for 5 plus days it was so hard for me to see him go back to work. He did come home today in the afternoon to help out. I cannot sit for long periods of time without discomfort in my lower back. My sleep last night was horrible. I am hoping for a more restful nights sleep. I had my first MRI yesterday. It was not a fun or enjoyable experience at all. I relied on God during this experience by singing praise and worship music and focusing on my kids and hubby. 15 minutes in that machine felt like forever. I just got the dr call back about my results and I do not have a herniated disc but I have a bulging disc. I am not for sure about the difference. I guess that a bulging disc is better than a herniated one. I am waiting to hear back from the dr. on call since my dr. is on vacation of what to do in the mean time. Going back to my title God has shown me in my devotion time and prayer time to be still. I am supposed to concentrate on him and give him the time that I am usually busy and running from here and there to him. I have in my kitchen the verse Psalm 46:10 which says "Be still and know that I am God." Luke 1:37 hit home for me too. I have this verse stickered to my living room wall. "For with God nothing shall be impossible." I look at this verse so many times a day, but until now I realize I look at it and God speaks to me through that verse.
Today's devotion read Thank Me for the conditions that are requiring you to be still. I am supposed to thank him in my pain and suffering. It finally hit me, he sent his son to suffer on the cross for my sins, my wrongs, for me. Here is some of the rest of the devotion...Do not spoil these quiet hours by wishing them away, waiting impatiently to be active again. Some of the greatest works in My kingdom have been done from sick beds and prison cells. Instead of resenting the limitations of a weakened body, search for My way in the midst of these very circumstances. Limitations can be liberating when your strongest desire is living close to Me. Much more on that devotion but I gave the little bit of it. All I could think about before reading this devotion is how can I get better faster. God does not want this to be a speedy recovery he wants me to spend time with him like I have never before.
If you go about your day and not give that time to him he will find a way to have time with you even if it is uncomfortable or painful for the time being. I have been reading a book in my women's study group called "Crazy Love" by Francis Chan this study was exactly where God wanted me to be. I am wanting to have that Crazy love for my savior Jesus Christ, because he is crazy in love with me.
